mid may

well, this 15 mins a day thing hasn't been going too well, has it? I'm going to have to start blogging from my phone - recently littleun has been rather demanding of my time, the little ike - he's getting livelier by the day. anyway, it's probably a good thing that Ive been away for a bit, I've had a horribly upsetting couple of weeks. i arranged to meet babyfather (in public, due to previous harassment and domestic violence incidents). i thought, what can possibly go wrong with swimming - a good father child bonding experience and a public place to protect mummy. well, he turned up late (wasn't going to go swimming at all till i told him i was going and that's that). i was going to meet some friends after so i took pity on his sorry ass and said he could come along. he seemed OK, quite normal but when i told him i was going to drop him home it all kicked off - he didn't want to go home etc etc (hmmm remind anyone of a childish tantrum?). then he wanted me to go into his house, i refused and so he took babba out of his car seat and wouldn't let us go for THREE HOURS.

i had to arrange to meet him two days after, just so that he would let us go (i was cold baby was upset). however, on failing to meet him i was barraged by abusive emails, which got duly passed to the police who have now warned him to keep away and speak to me though the solicitors.

it took me a good week to get over all that upset, i got a stress rash and everything, i really do not do upset very well, and of course i was afraid of the repercussions, as he had warned me about getting the police involved. still a bit jumpy but getting better this week.

drama!

anyway, got forms here for injunction 'non-molestation' order here, so i'll pop them in over the weekend and then we might be a bit safer. got an email from his sister today though. not sure what to do about that.

it's a fecking nightmare so it is.

oops baby waking, gtg xx

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